22 Lessons Learnt from Jealousy.
Jealousy is a mystical experience. The full on one I ever felt was the explosion of anger & depression of sadness. Then nagging few days of aftershock wave ranging from loneliness, stress, relief, trust, fear, anxiety, frustration, anger, love, arousal, hatred, gratitude, confused, clarity, and everything else bit by bit.
Jealousy were there to gossip softly
..that I am human.
..that I am capable of experiencing true love in the name of pleasure & pain.
..that it is time to love & respect myself. Never stop remembering how beautiful I am. How worthy of love I am.
..that I always have abundant people & beings to love & be loved. My dad, mom, sister, family, friends, lovers, cat next door, my doggie 🐶 pillow, coachee, lavender, workshop participants, the sun, the moon, the blue sky, the cloud.
..that I have so many things that made me feel alive. Dressing up pretty, dancing zumba, yoga, swim, draw, rubric, sing, mantra, run, absorv art, meditation, write, coach, hold loving & learning space for people.
..that there are much more new things & people to experience. Joining swing dance, singing choir, joining ceramic communities, initiating group of people who love to meditate, being activist on “Love & Compassion".
..that Jealousy is not so scary as I thought. True Empathy for people who have felt it. When it manifests in my sister, best friend, lover, it is very okay. Common human experience.
..that freedom I grant to my loved ones mean the freedom to myself & my heart too 💗. Each connection is unique & has its own purpose. Domestic partner, distance partner, running partner, dancing partner, coaching partner, playing partner, business partner, and so onnnn. But it’s not about role. Role changes like a weather or a season. It’s about the person & the connection.
..that attachment is okay. It is natural to feel attached, and it is manageable experience. No needs to fight-flight-freeze. Keep flowing with the love that shows up. Skill of need management & communication.
..that love binds & frees us at the same time.
..that feelings habituate & familiarize. Experiencing same things again & again will reduce the intensity of it. First time fear & anxiety? 3rd time enjoyment? 16th time boredom.. Hahaha
..that it’s time to have fun! Go explore.
..that there are open space for anything that is calling us.
..that it’s part of life & part of emotion. Not everything. Part of the full range colors.
..that’s it just happen. Based on the continuation of causes & effects. When love born, let it. When love shake, let it. When love die, so let it. Navigate through a stream of love with minimum suffering. Non violence for myself & people around. No needs to suffer my dear. Let the pain wash away the unnecessary old stories & rest in the soft spot right now, at this moment, new love stories will keep emerging anyways!
..that school of life is embracing us, helping us learn the lessons that we are capable of learning.
..that I am not pro polyamory nor monogamy. It is about being connected. Forms follows & enables. If forms don’t, just reshape & redesign, Simple!
..that it’s not near death experience. Hahaha. 😂 I & other human who feel it will survive. So what doesn’t kill u made u stronger! I don’t have to be afraid of this ‘mystical feeling of love’ in the name of jealousy when it manifests in me or people around me anymore!!!
..that true compersion or true Empathic joy could only happens when we made friend with jealousy. Let our loved ones be joyful in the mean that serve them & let us feel the joy in their joy. And same to us. We allow our love ones to feel the joy in our joy too!
..that yes, I want to flow with you my loved one and along with all my other lovers too!
..that this too, shall pass.
..that we are A L I V E!
I am so thankful for jealousy. The path of reconnecting to Love in all names.
So yeahh, What’s the next lesson, my love? 😉
If there is more to learn with you, let it comes. If not with you, let it shall be with any other partner. 🙆 Welcome to my house of love babe!
PS. Gentle reminder & addition of my 2019 intentions
- Mindfulness, compassion, understanding. Yes.
2. Ordain? Nature?. Yes, I’m ordaining in school of life & nature=>Unlimited friendliness & Wise true love. And I’m living this purpose in the city, working & having family. I pave my own way, design the forms that serve.
3. Flowing with one of my dear lover fearlessly. Yes, and all along with my other loved ones too. And yes, Flexible in priority.
